Brittany

09:26 pm: I'm pist, he breaks my heart, We both move on and stop talking to each other, he comes back to me and says he doesnt want to be without me, we both give up everything for each other once again, he says wait for the relationship to come, so i wait....and wait....and wait. It's been almost 3 months of waiting, and he says keep waiting. I'm tired of waiting, I'm tired of wasting, I'm tired of feeling used, I'm tired of worrying, I'm tired of wishing, I'm tired of trying....I'm tired of it all.....

So why do I stay around? Why dont I let go? Why can I not stop loving him? Why cant he just be happy with me forever and stop waiting?

I'm a joke, I honestly am. I dont blame everyone for thinking I'm stupid because I truely am.

09:46 am: Homework homework homework....
Oh jeeze!

College is taking a toll on my little body. So much homework. My math teacher told me to cut my hours at work. She says I do too much to focus on school. Personally I think I should pay more focus to my boyfriend, I'm kidding. Maybe if he would encourage me to do homework instead of trying to play with me when I am in the middle of doing and assignment. We always get off track. Usually we fall asleep. OMG, we had the best nap at his house yesturday. It was so nice. So he hates Ashley, that kinda sucks because she is like my best friend. I think it's because she wants me to go hang out with her and boys all the time and she doesn't care about Matt's feelings towards it. So in conclusion he hates her. But I love her, we laugh so hard when we hang out! But I know she understands that I cant go hang out with Tyler or go to Josh's house. So it's not like she tries to force me to do things I cant. Oh well! They will get over it.

I guess the plan is to hang out with Sarah and Jacie this Friday night, I dont know if it will actually happen since I think I made two different plans on the same day, I will figure it out. Maybe Ashley can come with us. And Sarah: I am barely around Matt, I see him for like 2 hours a day so ha! Slut, kidding...love you!

I guess my sister is getting married, she asked me to be her brides maid...I said no.

So I just discovered that Matt and I's anniversary is on the 14th of every month, that means our 9 month is on VALENTINES DAY.....how cute is that?

I need a new job....I really want to work at a coffee place.

I hate snow, I hope it doesn't snow this year.

Crap: I dont know what time I work today.

Laguna Beach was just alright last night, but the next one looks good! How exciting.

09:58 am: no subject....Just being bored at school!
So I got all my marketing homework done last night but it probably wasn't a good idea to skip class yesturday. I was so tired though. I ended up at Matt's at like 11:00am and we both fell asleep. Then after him and Joel left for school I went home, cleaned my car, did homework for 2 hours and then fell asleep at like 11:00pm. Not a bad day but I always want to sleep, is that bad, I heard that's bad? Anyways, once again I get to see Matt for like 2 hours today. We both work till close, maybe we will get off around the same time so we can see each other for like 3 seconds. But I have tomorrow off and so does he so we will get in at least 6 hours tomorrow. Katey is coming home on Friday, I guess a bunch of us were suppose to go out to dinner after the homecoming game but Matt and I both work, I'm going to see if Kyle wants to take my shift on Friday though because I hate closing on Fridays! We might still go to dinner but it wont be till like 11:00pm. I dont know, my head hurts from thiking! I remember when I used to sleep all day and then go to endless movies with matt and then we would go back to my house at night and go swimming. I hate being an adult! But I am glad the high school part is over! I am getting my hair done on Saturday, I am excited! Even though I dont know what I am going to do with it yet! All I know is it's going to cost me like $70! I'm a broke college student.

On another note: some people never change, they upset me!

I think Conner is a really cute name.

I want a blizzard, I will buy one!

09:42 am: So I'm in school again, I should really be doing homework but my brain is too weak at the moment. I got all my marketing assignments done though, or at least I think I did. Oh crap! I have to go buy a book. Bye

09:51 am: College
So I am in school right now. I actually really like college. It is way better than high school. You can actually avoid people you hate, heh heh...kidding! But really, my classes are fun and short. I have Jacie, Adam and Cameron in my math class and then I have a really fun marketing class. But balancing work, school, sleep and a boyfriend is crazy. I try to make all the time in the world for Matt though. He just plays Madden while I am workin away at my homework. It's not my fault he has one class and I have 3! But he is in a firefighting class that he really enjoys so that is good. I get Friday off of work so I am going to spend the whole day with him. And I might do some homework:(



Gas is crazy expensive, it takes me 35 minutes to get to school and then 30 back into Everett, what a waste!

I named my car Zanzibar just to piss Matt off.....his nickname is Zanzy, thanks to Ashley.

I miss Katey, please dont turn into a whore at Eastern. I will only allow her to sleep with Mark.

I miss Matthew. He should have gone to Edmonds....who goes to Everett??? Losers! heh heh! At least Edmonds has free parking!

12:28 am: Since you've been gone....
OMG, finally Matt came home from Oregon, I missed him so much. My other half was gone for three days, how do people expect me to function properly without him, heh heh. So he came over and I cooked food, then we watched Laguna Beach(I'm so excited for the next episode), and then we slept for awhile:) But he found out that he had to work over-nighters for the rest of the week so he just went into work at midnight. But we both have the day off tomorrow so we can spend time together before our work schedules tear us apart from each other.

I start school next monday, how scary....college! SCARY:(

Last night I got ice cream with Ashley, then went to a bonfire with Katey, Ashley, Joe P, Shawn, Robert and chad, then Ashely and I went to Chris Millers house and then they wanted to go hang out with Tyler and his people, so we all went to turn the water fountain water green at the casino, almost got our butts kicked by crazy body builder guys at the gas station, then we drove to random places....which the boys thought it was real funny to play road rage, which is when you go like 20mph on the freeway to piss people off, yeah, it's so annoying. But finally I had a bad feeling in my stomach and I didn't think it was fair to be around some of the people I was around so chris and I went home at like 1:00am....just in time to talk to Matt.

Now I am off to sleep because I need to get my sleep back on schedule for school.

I love you Matthew, I'm sooooooo glad you're home.

12:12 pm: no subject....in particular!
The thunder storm the other night was so scary. I woke up and hid under my covers, I hate thunder! Matt didn't even wake up, the only time he woke up is when he almost fell off my bed.

Him and Joel already left for Oregon. Matt's phone doesn't work down there so I can barely get a hold of him. It sucks. But he comes home on Monday.

I went to work and then hung out with Ashley after. We went to dicks and then to Trevor Lanes house. We were there until like 3:00am. It was fun though, Trevor still makes me laugh till my abs hurt. He wants me and Ashley to help him move into his dorm room, how fun!

College starts in a week......here we go again.

Sarah: call me whenever you can because I want to come see your house! As a matter of fact I'll just call you!



I miss Matthew.


bye. xoxoxo
Britt

01:30 pm: *My mom is gone for 10 days
*Matt is wondeful.
*My car is adorable
*My job is alright
*And I got cool sheets for my bed


Life is good.

11:04 am: Finally!!!!
Yay, so I bought my car. A 2001 Pontiac Sunfire, it's silver and adorable! I still have to get insurance on it though. It was a total of $6600. I'm broke in other words. I also got a job at American Eagle and I have an interview for the new theater on Monday, I plan to work both jobs if I get that one too. It's good that I start working again, because now I need to pay for school and my car. All I ever do anymore is hang out with Matt, which is always fun but I need to do other things too. Matt works like 11 hours today because they moved their store across the mall. So I will see him tomorrow, in the mean time I can tan!!!!!! Go me! Short and to the point, bye bye!

10:42 pm: SARAH DO YOU REMEMBER THIS.......HAHA
May 21st, 2004
09:06 pm:

clear eyes aaaahhhhhhhhhh! tripped over curling irons! DOWN THE POLE HELL YEA, FIRE POLE BABY! OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH;)

Tripped on the broom. attack of the broom! close the door close the door ahhhh!

shoutout to ryan bEAN......GGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR;)

WOO TANG WALA WALA BING BANG!

HELGA AND OLGA....WHERE ARE U FROM....SWITZERLAND! RIGHT? YEA!

ROOF....WE DO MISS YOU. YES!

PARTY ON WAYNE, PARTY ON GARTH........JACIE AND BRITTANY HERE!

HELLO HELLO;)THE WALL....GOTTA SAVE IT.......SWEATERS...IT WAS WINDY.....YEA HELGA SAYS!

JACIE: "OH NO!"
BRITTANY: AHHHH THUNDER
JACIE AND SARAH: WHAT THE FUCK?
JACIE: ITS A PLANE
BRITTANY: OH NO!THEY CAN SEE!
JACIE: HURRY RUN INSIDE....THATS ALL FOLKS!

YEP YEP


Current Mood: oZZAAAAA
Current Music: THE WHISTLING OF THE WIND

03:59 pm: I miss my boyfriend like crazy but tongiht I'm hanging out with Jacie so the night should pick up. I miss going to her house and just eating lots of food and being totally stupid. Sarah, we called you and you didn't answer so if you wanna go tonight call us!

07:52 pm: Well hello fellow bloggers. My dearest journal, how I have missed you. I have been wanting to just write for awhile so I dont know why I haven't. It's still hard to believe that I'm out of high school and moving on into the real world. All in all high school wasn't that bad. Freshman year when you meet every body, Sophomore year when all I did was go to the games and when I got into my first big relationship (still wondering if that was a good idea, haha), junior year when I made cheer, that was my funnest year. I had the time of my life at all of those sike parties and the competitions and the girls in cheer. Then big senior year, where you want it all to end and you're ready to get out. Well I finally got out and I have to say I got alot out of high school. I learned alot from mr. Angelos. He was more than a teacher to me but rather a good friend that I would turn to if I had a problem with my family or what not. And I met Mathew, that's always a blessing. He is my new best friend, not to replace my others but he means the world to me. He proved so much and he has grown up so much. I love him more than words can say. Hopefully god will keep him in my life for a long time, hopefully forever. I love you so much baby. But now it's time to move on to college and I still wonder if I made the right decision by staying here for two years instead of going to Eastern. But the reason I was going to Eastern was to get away from this place and now I have come to realize that e-town isn't that bad. I still feel like I disappointed so many people by not going. Maybe in two years. I'm sure I'll make it wherever I go. I believe in myself and I have friends that believe in me too so I'm sure that I can tough it out. I need to start trying to spend time with more of my old friends though, like Sarah and Jacie. God us girls used to have the best time together, not that all of it was legal but it was still fun! The car break down on the freeway, come on. I hope that our lifestyles havent changed that much to the point where we cant be that close again, cuz those are my girls on the real. And my dearest Marissa, she'll always be there but she's not always there if you know what I mean. But I know I'll be at her wedding in no time, her and Jacob proved everyone wrong so good job guys. 18 years flew by in a way. It's kinda sad but I'm glad that the drama part is over. Now on to college, work and my boyfriend. yay for me. I'll post more later. bye bye!

xoxoxo brittany

10:33 am: The whole point of going to Eastern was to get away from her but now I'm not even going through with that. One minute she is so nice and then the next she is freakin out, maybe it's because I am the only one to take it out on. Well what up community college, hopefully it will go by fast! Maybe I'll go to Seattle. But I am still going to be in the vicinity of Mathew.

11:04 am: random writing
Sarah: thanks for coming to my graduation, it sucks that you couldn't find me. I plan on coming and seeing the house soon. I'm glad your surgery went well.

Steph: What the fuck, where is my random phone call.

Tyler: So you and Sarah eh? That's cute, she seems good for you, finally a girl that can handle you.



So life is great. Summer is really going well so far. I'm stayin home for college, for alot of reasons. I got a new laptop, it is the nicest one you can get trust me. If you are wondering about Matt and I we are great. I couldn't of found a better match. We are so in love, I am the luckiest girl in the world.

05:59 pm: I LOVE YOU SARAH AND I MISS YOU, SORRY I HAVENT CALLED, I BLAME MYSELF DONT WORRY! I WILL CALL YOU SOON THOUGH. MAKING UP ALL THE SCHOOL WORK THAT I MISSED SUCKS!

08:31 pm: Like most people....
gone to myspace......i'll miss ya. Don't worry, I'll check up! bye

11:50 am: Okay I feel better.....days have passed, on to another! I am so hooking Rich and Katey up. I made them talk last night on the phone, I guess it went well, he wants to see her, go me, I'm the next hitch!

School is almost done, being suspended sucks.

I'm going back up to western soon. Well in May.

clubbin was fun, we are going every weekend!







steph, sarah: hit me up.

04:35 pm: bitches!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

04:26 pm: ahhhhhhhhhhh, I hate the thought that i cant trust my friends ya know. Like you want to believe they care for you but as soon as you turn your head they are doing something behind your back. I can't wait to make new friends at eastern. people like Sarah or marissa or steph would never try to go behind my back and screw me over. There is nothing i can do though because if i say something then i look jealous or stupid. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I wish i was back in Dyersburg with my good christian friends and family, they were good for me. I was a better person in the south. I liked that I was into god and that i liked to participate in community events and shit. A WAY BETTER PERSON!!!!!!! Maybe i will move back home after college, i mean back to the south. Fuck washington.

02:29 pm: What up ya'll......chillin at western, cute boys! holla. I'm in debt, we found lots of malls.hella clothes!!!!!!!!!!

Walked for like 5 hours last night......good exercise.

Drunk walks are fun.